Hello (:

Sometimes I wonder to myself why people lie. Seriously, I dislike them. You know the feeling when people say something then they do the other? It comepletely sucks and spoils my fine day.

Today NAPFA practice... Dont get the point of having a practice -.- Really happy with my improvement on standing broad jump - last year was like... just passed? This year was like 176cm... *smiles :D*

then watch video on internet using blah blah... not really interested but watched the front part then my mind starts to wonder around le :P

Recess.
Asked them if going to eat for recess. YT replied me they are. Okay, fine. Since we did not have recess together for a long time, then just go lor. Just drink something or eat something while chatting don't really seem like a bad idea. Finally dismissed for recess, Then SM they all suddenly say they not going for recess le. Then PUSH me to go with sec 1'08 friends for recess. Somemore in all smiles asking me if its okay to go recess with them, what's more IN FRONT of them.

What the hell can I say sia? NO?

Nvm, very long nvr hang out with them liao. so I just go lor. Did not regret. They really fun (: Then when JW and I buying milos for SF and AL, I saw SL they all sitting in the CANTEEN chatting when they say they are not going for recess. In addition, they can still call out to me not feeling guilty (or at least they dont seemed to be).

Sometimes I wonder WHY THE HECK they act like that? Not only that... Recently, they keep whispering whispering whispering, as if they dont want me to know anything lor. WTH sia. Don't you guys know that I will feel left out? feel lonely? feel upset? One thing I, myself, am very sure about me is that I tend to feel left out easily. Image you in MY shoes. Your 'best friends' keep whispering behind your back. How would you feel?

SERIOUSLY, if you don't want me to be there, just tell me to GET THE HELL OUT OF YOUR SIGHT and I will back off de. I dont find it a need to push me away NICELY in those fake high-pitched voice as if I am a bother to you. FINE! I am a bother to you so what!? Just open your mouth and tell me to get the ________ off and I'll do it!

Walking past AceKidz just now, then I just wanted to say hi to SL. But I cant find her. Then say hi to the teacher. She asked me if I am the one with the farewell party. I was -Shocked- What farewell party is she talking about? Afterwards, she seemed a bit guilty after saying the word 'farewell party'.

Do you guys still want me to act as if I don't know anything?